Unblocked

An earlier post was deleted on the early morning of 20th June 2008.

My late grandfather Pg Hj Damit Pg Md Salleh had already been in the hospital for a while. The PHD was always there everyday and night. During the school holidays I spent my mornings there with my cousins and sibling to accompany my Nini Banu.

The eve of the 19th, after the usual Hajat prayers, we all went up and opted for a late dinner. He went inside the MICU to recite the yassin for my late Nini Aji. But he came out not long after he had entered because the nurse told him to go out.

My late Nini was experiencing spasms. My cousin Fizul felt uneasy and we stuck around for a bit. After about 20 minutes we decided to go down to the canteen to have dinner.

After dinner we all went up and my uncle asked us to stick around for a bit while we went to get something. Then all of a sudden my other uncles and auties were asked to go inside the MICU. I remember it was around half past 10.

We got worried. Then my Aunt came out and she was crying and told me to call my Mother who had just left. I tried to call. I remember I started to cry. I kept on dialing but no one picked up.

I was even more frustrated.

I couldn't wait. I went inside the MICU. My Aunties were crying. My late Nini's stats was slowly decreasing.

We all started to gather around his bed...

My late Nini Aji passed away the same night.

Eventhough I have been preparing myself for that moment. Eventhough we all knew this was eventually going to happen.

I realised how much I missed my late Nini.

Tears streaming down and it seemed never ending.

Everytime I am alone I think of him. I pray for him.

My fellow readers (If I have any) this is the reason why I had blocked anyone from viewing this blog.

I was protecting my younger sibling who was about to sit for her first semester exam down under in Adelaide. My parents gave strict instructions not to mention anything on my blog.

Abang is so sorry Lina. I wanted to tell you so badly. I really did but to cause you emotional stress at a time when you had your future to deal with. Abang has been there before and it is not the kind of mental state you would want to be in. I love you Lina. I hope you understand.

I deleted the post but my friend had tagged about it already.

Thank You Emmy, Amin.

Please sedekahkan Al-Fatihah to my late Nini Aji, Pg Hj Damit bin Pg Md Salleh. Al Fatihah.

Semoga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman.

Amin